Tuesday, June 28, 2005
That's it.
I have had enough of you.
Totally.
Of all your nonsense and shit.
You have been fooling around so much
i can't stand it.
It's getting the better of me.
I want to hate you but I can't.
But clearly love,
You're not making any effort at all to live up
to what you promised.
Simply letting everything go.
I'm ending it.
I have to.
Putting a fucking good stop to it.
It's over.
No more.
You see.
Once in a while,
I have to lecture myself.
:D
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 7:04 PM
Monday, June 27, 2005
One request to my heavenly father.
Please make my lfe better/more beautiful/more worthwhile/
less complicated/less screwed up/anti- problem-ed.
AMEN.
I just realized I haven't been to CINE in
a while.
Make that a very long while.
Was looking through Classifieds yesterday.
And my eyes got latched upon the
"POMS Puppies 5 weeks old fer sale" advert.
Instinctively, I called up the person;
of which happened to be a lady to crack the price.
500$/=
:D
I might be going down to see the lil angels.
Male/Female.
Beige
- grins
I AM IN LOVE WITH OLINDA.
SHE IS SO &^%$#@! SEXAYE NOW.
- screams.
Hot hot hot hot !
Those whom have seen her on Live !
In the Times papers front cover should know.
It's a 400 deg makeover.
Totally.
One word when I saw that picture.
FUCK.
The other one word followed up was,
WAH.
Yes, limited vocab = lyn
but i don't care.
((:
My spine's hurting.
My tummy has cramps (it's not my tyme of the mth).
My hair loss problem is comming back i swear.
My face has played/is playing host to pimples.
Adds up to stress.
Simple to find out.
No tyme to rid of.
Not to mention I've been sleeping off Le'le
during our sms conversation.
- accck.
I bet he's really pissed at me.
Three nights in a row.
I'M SORRY.
I REALLY AM.
My older cousin got herself a dirtbike.
- grin grin grin -
Now my dad has no excuses to not let me have a bike.
Then again, the automoblie of higher complex-city which is the car,
proves a much more preferable choice.
:D
I miss charcoal.
ARGH.
Okay,
my left eye's itchy.
i'm gonna wash it.
later.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:27 PM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
I got mie stuffs alrd.
Many thanks to my aunt.
(:
Changed friendster's pics.
Got bored.
Been rainy these days.
- sigh
Mich darling sent over papers.
She's a TOTAL angel i tell ya.
- HUGS
Charcoal's back !
<3
Decided on what to call mie 2nd furball.
Most prolly Bebe as in
Bay bay.
Heh.
Sable white OR Speckled brown.
Choices.
She will be accomanying me out most of the tyme.
Studying etc.
:D :D
I'm no more suffering from poverty !
- huge grins
I simply cannot stand who abuses their authority.
Seething freaking unworthy black duck.
- frowns
And oh,
I got cramps.
):
Gyming.
:D
I'm on the tale of the red bracelet.
It's not gonna be easy.
I miss Danielle and Kimberly and Terri.
When you spend most of your tyme alone,
you learn how to make yourself laugh,
you learn how to make yourself cry.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 5:50 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
i'm feeling so fucking insecure.
i don't think i can afford to lose you.
but i might.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 12:36 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
I woke up feeling,
UN-DEPRESSED.
- woots.
Applause people please.
:)
Many many things have happened.
Good and of course irritatingly pissy ones.
I frenched my nails !
- yayyy
Well, to my emo chairman,
I reckon it's better of this way.
You weren't happy anws.
So why the drag and deeper pain.
I know it hurts.
But you still hafta move on aye ?
- hugs
We're there for you.
:D
Been out often with Min.
- GRINS
Frequent cartel.
Yes, the cute waiter that D embarrassed.
How pai seh lah.
>.<
No, NO weird ideas.
I still want thee one.
:))
I'm gonna get a POM !
Most likely.
I want a one that is female & hopefully; sable.
And in case you don't know,
POM = Pomeranian.
this:
-nods.
Fluffy furrrlball.
Then i'll have TWO fur balls at home.
(:
I gather min will like it.
heh.
Haven't decided what to name it yet.
- pfffft
I got a call from my fav charcoal.
loads of misses and love.
:D :D
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:58 PM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
madfuck.
I hate it when you don't understand.
I hate it when you jump to conclusions.
I hate it when you think of yourself and not
others.
I hate it when you expect me to do things yet you
don't show it to me.
I hate it.
Absolutely detest it.
Do you know it hurts ?
Do you ?
Obviously, you don't.
You've never really thought of how I felt.
Everything's all about you.
YOU
And no one else.
It's really un-bearable.
And you don't give me tyme to explain.
You simply jump to conclusions.
It's unfair to me.
I don't know.
I'm more confused.
You're not what I thought you are.
You're just a mystery to me.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:09 AM
Friday, June 17, 2005
drowing my soul in house beats.
Like how fucked up I am now pls.
I don't even know what's on your freaking mind.
You're saying you're insecure, yet you're showing me other signs.
You're saying you're serious, yet you're not showing anything to me.
What am I supposed to do ?
I feel invisible to you.
- sighs
I don't wanna give you up.
I don't wanna hurt you.
I don't.
I'm confused.
Like a veil over my eyes.
I can't see you.
If you love me; tell me.
Don't whisper into my ears.
I need to feel you.
To know you're real.
Take my hand; lead the way.
Show me.
Messy,
Tangled up in the tear- soaked sheets.
I say "I love You."
Barely choking out those words,
Oblivious to my own blood stains.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:21 AM
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
late night convo with dearest:
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
goodnight my friend
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
now we'll part ways
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
till we meet again
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
aww, damm you
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
ur making me cry
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
):
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
i'll remember you for all of my days
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
fuck, that was good
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
dammit char.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
hush!!
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
)):
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
it's not funny.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
i think of the last day of sch in sjc.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
and the tears.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
and all the fun we used to have.
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
i can't remember the last day of sjc
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
another day, another time
hope I get to repeat this rhyme
another day, another year
but my friend, i'll still be here
Even though I'll cry, it's still gonna be goodbye.. for now. says:
wow, what's up with me tonight?
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me. says:
my sentiments.
min!
i've got this urge to call you,
then bawl my eyes out at this ungodly hr.
amen.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 2:09 AM
Monday, June 13, 2005
i had an awesome night.
sleeping that is.
(((:
the only thing that would make
it perfect;
was to have you with me.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 1:54 PM
Saturday, June 11, 2005
i feel so sick.
acccck.
- frowns
Got myself companions for the weekend.
6 VCDS from Video-EZ.
AHAHA.
Yes, I'm boring I know.
- sigh sigh -
I'm officially F R E E now.
Yayyy.
(((:
I love my mushroom.
Had din din with her tday.
Casear Salad.
- drools
:D
and happy daze.
:D :D
I'm in emo shit now.
rahhhhh.
enough said.
i'm going gyming tmr.
(((:
- out
show me something real;
show me something I can feel.
don't leave me hanging on a
thin red line, close to cutting
my throat oh so deep.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 8:55 PM
Thursday, June 09, 2005
thank you for making me smile.
it's the lil things that you do
to make my day.
baby; it's just you.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 12:42 AM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
fuck.
this is driving me crazy.
you mess me up.
please put me right.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:39 PM
Sunday, June 05, 2005
i'm thinking of highlighting my hair.
AHHAHA.
purple.
:D
then again.
i'm having thoughts bout the
results.
:(
thus, this matter shall be out on hold.
these few days have been equally chaotic.
pfffft.
i've been putting on fake facades and
plastering fucking fake smiles just to
get through with life.
oh how lovely please.
i seriously think i need prozac.
shall go get some from my councilor.
plus additional sleeping pills.
and and and; what ever anti-depression pills
they have.
tsk, those "sleeping pills" don't work.
ARGH.
unexplainable why i'm having breakdowns.
or why my eating disorders are coming back.
the tear-stained pillows and sleepless nights.
slient blank white moments and flash
backs.
and no, i'm not going back to cutting.
:))
be proud of me.
heh.
no solution found still to the shtye i'm going
through.
in three days; i've slept only 6 hrs.
THREE FREAKING DAYS.
- screams
words can be so deciving.
sweet talk is so easy.
it's so hard to tell if those words
held on to the meanings they really carry.
or were they just words to make all
seem right.
couples have been breaking up.
quarrels, cheating hearts, hate.
it's so depressing to see these kinda stuff.
- sighs
my dad took my fucking scale away.
omfg.
this is the worst thing that can happen to
me now.
i'm gonna get a new one once i get out
of the house.
and electric one.
can't trust the others.
:D :D
talking to my mushroom on msn
now.
x)
for this moment.
i'm feeling-less.
wished it wouldn't be this way again.
to you:
i'd be praying for you.
that you overcome all odds.
that you'd be safe and sound.
that you'd be happy.
keep smiling no matter.
and i'll be thinking of you.
yes;
only you can make
me smile.
please don't take my
sunshine away.
thank you for
telling me you'll stay.
that you'll not leave.
that meant everything to me.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 9:32 PM
Saturday, June 04, 2005
i got my nose stud.
i'm sadhappy.
acccks.
there's so many things going
round that head of mine,
so many things i wanna ask,
so many things i wanna do.
but i can't.
i'm having
a mental blockade.
Mummy just came back from
Thailand and the first thing she said was;
"WHY ARE YOU SO PALE ?!?!!"
howmisupposedtoknow.
ithinkithassomethingtodowithmyname.
heh.
i drank a litre of milk.
:D :D :D
- burps
i'm going to die from over production
of renin.
r e t a r d.
i don't want to blog but somehow i'm
in blogger.
fascinating.
my ankle hurts.
my head hurts.
my heart hurts.
i'm a pain.
i know.
((:
when drunk people sing,
crows abandon their trees.
baby i just wanna love you.
you're my shoo-ger rush !
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 10:52 PM
Friday, June 03, 2005
it's been like dfghjkldfghjkl days.
and i'm still feeling like shtye.
this is horrible.
love my mushroom loads.
she's my favourite whore fungi. :D
boy, i missed you loads.
it's been awhile.
i hope your getting along well on ur side.
stay happy; and i'll be fine.
just to let you know;
you've not failed to keep me thinking
of you 24/7.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 12:35 AM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
ihateitwhenyoulietome.
groovy (:
it's always because of you ; 11:28 PM
